Exodus International, I forgive you for teaching me that there is a God who is intolerant of me.
Exodus International, I forgive you for pulling me away from my body.
Exodus International, I forgive you for pulling me away from my family.
Exodus International, I forgive you for dividing me from my own mind.
Exodus International, I forgive you for dividing me from my own spirit.
Exodus International, I forgive you for raping my soul.
Exodus International, I forgive you for molesting my identity.
Exodus International, I forgive you…
Not because you have stopped hurting others with your cult tactics.
Not because you aren’t guilty of attempting to control others with ideas about heterosexual supremacy.
But because you taught me how to hate…
And it’s time I surrender that tactic entirely.
Forgiveness is my act of self-love and an act of refusing to hold any space for hate, even hatred for your ways.
I will not have space for hate anymore.
I will not hate myself for being human.
I will not hate God for making me homosexual.
I will not hate people for not understanding how spirituality and sexuality beautifully converge.
I will not hate churches for refusing to honor my commitment to love.
I will not hate this world for being a place where choices are taken away from us.
I will be a person of love.
So, in short…
Exodus International, love really did win out for me.
Because I forgive you for teaching me to hate.
For anyone who has been damaged by the ex-gay movement’s attempt at genocide, know that there is hope and you will move BEYOND being “ex-gay.” www.beyondexgay.com And for anyone who has ever held on too long to an injury to your soul, know that in just wanting to let go, a change will come, the earth will tremble and eventually, forgiveness will find you…
In the News: Exodus shuts down its residential soul-raping facility. http://www.exgaywatch.com/wp/2011/09/love-in-action-suspends-residential-program/
To read more about my most recent transformation regarding ex-gay survival, follow the “ex-gay lie” category on my blog or view this category from my old site.